02
Jan
I miss having that best friend figure. A person I can just spill my guts to and not fear judgement because I know they’ll be my friend no matter what. Someone who will sit there and listen to my problems and trust me enough to let me listen to theirs. I miss having someone to talk to when I need to talk. I don’t feel like I have that with anyone anymore. I feel like I haven’t had a heart to heart with someone in forever.
And I know I just complaining at this point, but i feel like I’m going to end up getting left behind. But it feels like all my friends are moving on with their lives and falling in love and being grown ups and stuff, and I’m just stuck here alone in high school waiting for it to end. And I feel like my friends are just slowly drifting away.
Poor Brittney I sort of vented to her on the way home. I must have freaked her out. I guess she sort of got me back with that horribly awkward question. Then I go and ask if they were cruel like a dingus just weirding her out even more probably since she doesn’t even really know me and i just sort of vented at her.
I’m such an insecure weirdo about my friendships, geez.
